sounds like a bad country song, doesn't it?
i left a friend a voicemail today... and i was trying to sum up christmas break and life in general, and i said it before i could even think it... "you know? i think it's the first time in my life i'm not wanting something more."
it's not that i'm suddenly void of motivation or passion... just the opposite. i want to love what i have to the fullest... i've been so blessed -- with an amazing family, wonderful friends, a great education, a fantastic job, a wonderful relationship -- and most importantly, i have the raw sustenance to love God. we all do. isn't that all we need?
st. therese had this quote in story of a soul -- my favorite book :) -- about greatness. something about us each being like different sized jars and God filling us each to our capacity. there's no purpose in desiring a greater jar -- God will fill us to the brim as is. pride is desiring more than we were created to handle. whether we're a mason jar or a beer keg.. God can bless each of our lives in just the right amount -- He'll fill us perfectly.
maybe that's the danger in putting our faith in things other than God -- in bad habits or relationships or friendships or things -- we won't be filled to perfection. only God has the omnipotence to do that -- to know us better than we know ourselves. it's kind of a magical thing, isn't it?
so there's my thought about break -- that's what i've come away reflecting on. i'm sad about leaving my family to go back to school -- i hate leaving them, i hate missing out on the craziness and adventures that happen here... i miss watching the boys grow up. but i know this is all part of life. and i'm so thankful and grateful that my parents have raised me in a way that i can appreciate growing up. they gave me a lot more freedom than i probably deserved. they put a lot of trust in me.
i don't know why i'm in such a ridiculously cheesy mood -- it's all those christmas carols, i suppose. lots of nice conversations with old friends over break, too -- it's been wonderful. and i've started to appreciate the cappuccino -- i drank them in italy senior year, and forgot how much i loved them -- and they're rather cheap, too. so here's to the cappuccino, and the wonderful conversations that pour over it.
:) off to do laundry and finish packing... boomer is unpleased, to say the least. he absolutely hates when we leave, so he throws himself on the floor in the most inopportune place, it's kind of adorable. my packing strategy is awful -- i hate suitcases, so i insist on packing in shopping bags and laundry baskets. i should probably get over myself -- it's a lot easier to tote a suitcase around than a laundry basket, but oh well.
santa brought me lots of kitchen goodies, so i'm excited about expanding my cooking skills when a get back to school... we got two waffle irons for christmas, so i'm taking one to school.. plus a croc pot, george foreman, and food processor. i'm so stoked.. i can make homemade salsa! and waffles! not together, of course...
i really want to get into making jewelry.. it's an expensive hobby though.. really expensive. cheaper than buying stuff, i suppose -- plus, you can fix it when you break it (i'm a bit accident prone -- cory's a great fixer... we work well, don't we?)
ooh... i get to see cory tomorrow... i'm so excited. six months... who would have thought? :) i'm excited about spending some time with his family, too -- i dont remember the last time i saw all of them together. fall term got so busy...
so greenville tomorrow, then asheville, then greenville, then myrtle, then back to school!!! busy few days, but i'm excited. and ready. and can't wait...
YAY! :-D
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