this break has been absolutley the most insane contrast to school i've ever experienced.
it's not that the charleston crew is too much crazier than usual -- they're not, they've always been this way.. it's just that this past fall was the first time that none of them were a big part of my every day life... so i feel like i'm coming home as a different person. and being around the people i've always known... that difference feels real.
i think i'm changing. i was talking to jessie about it yesterday.. and i'm secure enough with my life where i'm not afraid to share it, you know? i still guard my heart a whole lot and i've definately become more independent... but i'm more open with people... more open to hearing what they have to say, which i think is the base of it. i don't know, i've noticed it at home. i have this craving to hear the stories of others...
i was talking about it to a friend last night -- it's so beneficial to hear someone's story and where they want to go rather than try to capture them in a moment. we may look alike in the present, but chances are.. we aren't. beecher squared called it the theory of movement, i think... even in the present, we have to look at what a persons' feet are doing as opposed to his lips. "the lips lie, but the feet tell the truth."
::sigh::
it's just been a hell of a ride this week. a good one, i think... it's just a lot compared to my fun camper dates and no-drama friendships/relationship that beautifully filled my fall term :)
i need a nap in a hammock. actually... i really need to finish my christmas shopping. and a little present i've been working on that i absolutely MUST mail today. we'll see if that happens.
yay, christmas break.
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